So I had a "bad day" today. I know it sounds silly, but I did. Everyone has them from time-to-time, and today was my turn. It's a very busy week for me at work and in my personal life and stress can really affect me in a negative way. I tend to internalize things. The thing is that I am fully aware that a person can choose how they want to feel. Yes it is true, and I fully believe this. But sometimes when I'm in the midst of stress and chaos I forget. All too often I forget. And when I left work today it was beautiful outside...still cold but the sun was out and the sky was blue. And I've mentioned this before but photography can, in a way, be a form of personal therapy for me. So I heeded my own previous advice and took a few photos of our Creator's miracles that are right in front of me. But I have to say, and I even chuckled about it to myself (and that's a good sign) that as I was removing my camera from its bag a lyric from the R.E.M. song, Bad Day, rang in my ears..."It's been a bad day, please don't take your picture." (click here to watch them sing it live on Letterman)
Anyhow, staring through the lens and really focusing on something has a calming effect on me. It really does. I'm sure it lowers my blood pressure. And as I took in the sights and sounds around me I couldn't help but think how I had a change of mind. And that's really all it takes sometimes...change your thoughts and change your world. And as I rode home feeling the cool air (cold, actually) on my face and taking in all the greatness that was right in front of me, all around me, and in fact within me, I felt grateful. And these two scriptures come to mind when I think of this.
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."
"Be sure to fix your mind on Me and to apply your intelligence for Me and you will live in Me for certain and never suffer any doubt thereafter."
And then later in the evening--just a few minutes before writing this post--I had a text conversation with a very dear friend of mine. A friend whom I treated poorly earlier in the day. We both forgave each other. And it made me remember what is truly real and what matters to me in this lifetime. People matter. So does beauty. So does love. Stress (fear) is unreal and something I fabricate myself. So if I am able to choose my thoughts and feelings, then I choose love and compassion. This is what I choose to start my day tomorrow (and to end my night tonight). It's not always easy, but it is possible. Tomorrow is another day, and another very busy day for me, but it's okay...I'll view it as a challenge, one which is able to be overcome.